Tuesday, January 10, 11:30 PM. Brewer.

I’m not doing too well. The symptoms I had last summer have returned.

I started to notice them three or four weeks ago. Headaches, dizziness, feeling like I’m going to throw up. Feeling like my eyes are crossed and not being able to uncross them. I’ve thrown up three times in the last few days.

The headaches were mild at first. I figured it was the weather. They’ve gotten worse and worse and now I’m having them every day. I had to leave Trevor’s birthday party. I hated to, but it felt like there was an ice pick in my head. I lay down for a couple of hours but it didn’t help much.

I’m letting down my family. I just don’t have the energy I should have. I can’t concentrate. I feel like lying down all the time. What’s wrong with me?

I pray it’s not cancer. The oncologist wasn’t sure it would be. I’m sure it’s something that will just pass and things will go back to normal.